As we’ve previously covered, I’m a sad person for many reasons. But! I had a really good weekend & I let something pretty big roll off my shoulders quite seamlessly which I’m very proud of.
I love emo music (yes, more than pop music) & last summer I went all the way to California to be at the best Warped Tour date for their last cross country tour. Then they announced there would be 3 shows this summer & I jumped when I saw that one weekend was in New Jersey. New Jersey is basically down the street from NYC so I got tickets without really looking into it & I was super pumped to scream for 2 days straight. Alas, the devil’s in the details & it didn’t end up working out so I didn’t go. At first I was really sad because this is my thing & a few days before I really gave up on going, I saw this post by my people at Alternative Press that was like salt in my open wound;
Concerts are so great!! Experiencing music live is like nothing else! Experiencing anything in the moment & really letting yourself be present in it is what life is all about. Which brings me to the silver lining of not going to Warped Tour…
World Pride! After living in NYC for about 4 years now, I had never been able to attend Pride because of work or travel & this year I would have missed the 50th anniversary of the Stonewall riot if I had gone to the same thing I’ve done other summers. I took this not-able-to-go-to-the-foreign-land-of-NJ as a sign that I needed to break out of my shell. On Sunday, I traded my studded belt for a dress with rainbow stripes & instead of painting my nails black, I did my eye makeup with some purple sparkly stuff! I drank, danced, sang, & it was really freakin awesome.
Why can’t every day have more rainbows in it? Why are there only colorful flags out in June? Can’t we wear tutus & glitter all the time? As amazing & fun as it to have one big party & a whole month of celebration, it also makes you realize how dull & oppressive the other times of the year are.
No matter what month it is, people are struggling. I am struggling. It’s important to know that everyone is struggling, some more than others & in very different ways, but we need to look out for each other. Can’t we all just be present, listen, dance around, smile, accept others even if we’re different, & be honest? If we did those things just a little more, we could all be better. & not just better for social media but for real. I’m pretty sad & I feel lonely most of the time but I’m trying to work on that by doing more outside of my comfort zone, strengthening friendships that I’ve let slide/have been sleeping on, & trying to really be there for the people I surround myself with because it can’t just be me who’s sad & lonely.
Can we all try to do that? That’s my request for the day. I would love if we could all work on helping others so that I can stop being sad about things that will never change (because we can change them!!) & can stop asking unanswerable questions about when world peace will happen.